In August of 2016, a friend of mine, Emily and I were talking about how we were going to set up these kick ass online businesses and not have to work our pathetic jobs anymore. After three hours of chatting and talking about our dream lifestyle, we left sunny Orange County and went back to our busy lives. I kept blogging until the end of the year when I could squeeze in an hour or two to write but still had very little views on my website.
I got more rejections for my novel in 2016, and it was defeating. I had lost count after getting so many that I decided to work with a mentor before I submitted to any more literary agents or went into self-publishing. I was appalled at how bad some of the top coaches did business, some of them would have a three month turnaround for deliverables, and others wouldn’t keep phone appointments. I know we’re artists but we still have to be reliable and professional. I was determined to find the right mentor to help me become a published author like I always dreamed. So in 2017, I decided that I wasn’t giving up on my novels that I loved so much—it was time to sell my books.
In February of 2017, my company announced layoffs. I have to be honest, taking the severance package and leaving the company seemed like my opportunity but since I didn’t get laid off, I considered myself one of the lucky ones that still had a job but now had double the work. I saw many good, hard working people take the walk of shame as they were escorted out of the building, some of them in tears. I didn’t want to be living off a severance package unless it was by choice, so I decided it was time to find that mentor.
Then I saw Brian Rose walking through London on his vlog. I listened to him talk as I washed the dishes and cooked dinner like always at the end of my day, and he announced the Business Accelerator was open for applications. That particular video I felt like he was talking directly to me that London Real was the solution I was waiting for.
I contacted London Real to ask if the Business Accelerator could help writers. The only answer I got was only two words.
I had interviewed many experienced writing coaches months before, asked all their qualifications and spent hours researching them. When I read the message below, I had no explanation of why or how they were going to help me, I just had a strong feeling that they could help me become the writer I wanted to be and I knew at that moment that I was ALL IN.
I spent many long days working in production, behind the camera and in the edit bays, but I never dared be on camera because I was told I was not fit for camera. In Los Angeles, where there are actors, models and talent everywhere, I believed them and was terrified of stepping in the spotlight.
But I wanted to be a writer, I knew I would have the spotlight if I was going to have any type of success as an author. So I tried to practice everything I could remember from directors and producers when they were giving instructions to the talent on how to talk to the camera.
I was terrified. Absolutely. Mortified. But I hit record anyway.
And every day since then.
Once I realized that the vlogging was working, and all with the love I was getting from each video, the fierce competitor inside me started to come out and I had my hustle and drive back. The same hustle and drive I had as a young competitive dancer, and the same hustle and drive I had to withstand more than 20 rejections from novel submissions, it carried me through the long eight weeks.
I had loved Brian on the videos, and I loved being on the calls with all the teammates. But there were moments I was so mad at him and my team leader, Julian.
Brian called me an overachiever. Julian was always too busy to help. I got so embarrassed because instead of being known as a single mom, hustling and working the business without excuses, I seemed like a snotty teacher’s pet. I wanted to slip back into the negative pattern of taking a dive, purposely throwing the competition and fall behind so I wouldn’t feel judged. I did this throughout school, I did this at work, it felt safe so I could avoid enemies and I always held back my ideas.
But that’s not the point of the Business Accelerator. At any given time, you need to be out of the safe zone, and for me that was just going along and keeping the peace and not speaking up, which kept me feeling empty.
Every time I felt alone and left out, someone reached out to me for help. I thought, “I’m not a coach, what could I teach them?” But I helped them anyway because I promised that I would be a good teammate to everyone. And people kept coming, and I kept giving. Soon first place didn’t matter. I saw the value and what I had to offer and I wanted to give more and I developed my first product that I could be proud of.
You have to go through the meltdowns. They will happen. After every meltdown, I told myself to accept the situation, be real about it, then pick up the pieces and move forward. And I did it every time since in all areas of my life.
But that’s the beauty of this program. Your ego has to break. You feel butterflies when you jump in but you feel extraordinary when your idea takes flight. Now I appreciate that Brian didn’t give me so much praise because I could not finish the program without humility.
I would get the feelings of flow, the same feeling I get when I am lost in my writing. I couldn’t sit still in my job anymore because all I wanted to do was work on my business. I couldn’t tolerate the things that no longer served me: late nights binge watching Netflix, bad dates, junk food, retail therapy, shady or self-interested people, and horrible bosses.
Before I held my first webinar, I ran into Emily in Orange County and told her about the Business Accelerator—I had a business model, customers, an email list, cold market, and how it had been one of the most exciting ventures I’ve done in years. She noticed the change in me, that I was happier person and said, “Remember last summer when we talked about doing this? You’re actually doing it!”
I just focused on surviving each week at a time, but I looked back and week one seemed like a lifetime ago. I felt like a different person. I realized why no job could make me happy because I was meant to be a writer and an entrepreneur.
My life’s most rewarding and wonderful moments weren’t on the vacations, weren’t in meetings, it was the moments that I took the opportunity, ran with the willing to chase my dream with every ounce of strength I had—and once I crossed the finish line I did the things that people told me were impossible, out of reach or flat out crazy.
And every day when I create content, I live for the creativity and the passion of being a writing entrepreneur who vlogs and helps people find ideas. It is now the best part of my day.
So if you're a writer or a wantreprenuer, how can you get started and feel this good every day?
Apply for the London Real Business Accelerator.
Then hit record.